Oh.. my gawd!

My tagline for this blog is..

"Sometimes you just gotta say.. WTF?"

And I'm saying that now.. What the fuck?!

I had made a comment about my 1000 words of bullshit. And after seeing the grade, I have to say.. what the fuck?

I nearly fell over in disbelief. 86 / 100. WTF?

An essay that took me less than 3 hours to hastily research, write and submit. I have to tell ya.. I'm absolutely astonished that I didn't get a grade worse than that. I should have failed. Really. I'm telling you - I'm not very impressed with my own essay. It's.. terrible!

I am complaining that I got a good grade because, honestly, I don't think I deserve it.

I think I'm in shock.

Anyway.. it is what it is. I still have another essay to write.. one on stereotypes. The premise is a little hard and I'm finding it difficult to articulate what it is I want to express. This one will be a challenge.

On to other notes..

I'm in something called the Ultimate Laugh Down which is coming up next week. And I need to write my material, practice and practice some more. I've decided that I need to be more edgy. I'm a pissed off guy who has rather off-beat opinions.. and they're full of fallacies, even. I like that about my shit.. They're logically questionable, but people don't give a shit as long as they agree. Let's face it - no one really cares about my sensitivity jokes, the gay shit or even the clever wit. And they certainly don't care about the lack of confidence I've been having (due to my not practicing or knowing my material to the best of my ability). My workshop instructor says that I need to explore the stuff that really pisses me off, the stuff that I am passionately displeased with (which is almost everything these days). I'm uncomfortable talking about these things and, frankly, I don't want to be judged. But, at the same time, it's fodder that can make people laugh. And they can relate. So, I'm going to start writing about it. And I'm going to see where it takes me because the sensitive, nice guy bullshit needs to stop and because no one.. NO ONE... deserves my compassion. NO ONE deserves my kindness. No one but me, anyway. And maybe a few select people. It's how it has to be. No one likes a pussy. And it's unfortunate because it's a stereotype I seem to be all too familiar with.