Just passin' the time

So, I'm sitting here kind of down. A friend of mine is going through a funk. So much so that he has shut everyone out and has drawn himself inward. He says he's not in a good place. How the hell does one help someone who's "not in a good place"? It pains me to see this. He is a dear friend and I wish he'd confide in me what is wrong. Sometimes, pride is a bad thing. And so is shame. But the two together often brings disastrous results. I am worried about him and I do hope he overcomes. It would sadden me greatly if something bad were to happen. I told him it's his life to do what he needs to do. I also told him that what he's doing is not the best thing to do. But, I'll be there when he finds clarity. And, we can pick up where things left off. I have faith that, someday soon, things will be back to normal.. or as close to it as possible.

So I found this ad on Craigslist last week. Let me tell you first; people on CL are fucking Nazis. They're all snobby little bitches who cannot bear to have an ad placed that doesn't fit into their rigid rules. I hope, one day, that CL fails. When it does, I will rejoice. Just as much as Walmart. Anyway, back to this ad. It was for a clinical study to test extract from sweet peppers on the metabolism of adults 30 and older. They supply the low-calorie diet and the capsules and I provide my time to test them. It's well worth the $130 they're going to pay me for it and I get to lose a shitload of weight and I don't have to spend any money eating for the next month. Of course, 800 calories a day is a little extreme. But, I'm up for it. And I'm doing well....

...when I'm not pulling my hair out or screaming at people due to absolute hunger.

Forty-three more days to go.

There is one problem. I have a date on Sunday. I hope she understands when I buy dinner that I can't eat with her. But I can drink my chocolate shake and hope her meal is good.